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Mr.Dean levels

Today Mr.Dean talk to us about meditation and how it affected his life. Also he told us the four level today I got to the third level which is looking at ones thoughts. I spent about 30 minutes look at my most stressful thing in my life which is failure. The failure of getting something wrong and doing something wrong as well. tomorrow I hope for more of this thought because I didn't find a solution. 

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snow day 

Today I meditated for 47 minutes when I came out of the meditation I saw sun light and everything was ten times greener. I was not sleeping how I could tell is that I heard the cars around my house and planes pass over. I noticed that I have physical pain in my back and the thoughts I was having was questions of my life. Then I look at my self  and saw a boy/man slip into dust I realized that I have Done nothing in my life that could help me in my future and that my future relieves nothing at all however by the end i felt like I don't care what happens and ether way both out comes r the same in life. The one that live on are the ones who realize that life is about the time you use not the time you spend.   

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The art of understanding  

As I took a deep breath I felt all my moving and as well as my blood flowing in one spot my legs. then I thought about my activities in my brain. Then it hit me if meditation can help pain is it possible to build a super human ability of strength. Then I wondered to my self if I was doing this right after a while I looked over at the clock and time was 30 minutes passed. 

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Interrupted while meditating 

The second time I was in my room laying down and I remember a sense of calmness however my brother decide to try to scary me.IT DID NOT WORK! I heard his foot steps but did not care of what he was doing. Its like I saw him coming but my eyes were closed. I tried to go back to my state of calm however I was on alert so no more meditation time.    

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THE FIRST IN COUNTER

When I did start meditating i felt myself slipping in to a stressed out state of my mind have however after a while I started to break down my mind and see the thoughts in my head. These thoughts were controlled by me and not by others which i mean is that my subconscious is not controlling my thoughts. My thoughts follow my stress to the max and not my so called peace of mind.i wonder if possible if I'm stress would relive its self. 

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my goals of meditation 

1. Relieve stress in everyday life.
2. To focus in high stress situations such as being timed, being yelled at, and relationships.
3. To Improve physical activity in ones sport.
4. Allow calmness when there is none.
5. Reaction ability in mental and physical actions.